Was I really that bad? Did I really need to quit for good?
Before I gave up drinking forever, I would surf the internet, and fill in endless questionnaires to figure out if I had a problem......well, more to convince myself that I didn't.
Now that I've not had a drink for 131 days, very occasionally an old familiar voice will whisper..."Seriously, don't you think this is all a bit over the top?".
So I devised my own questionnaire/ multiple choice session to refer back to, when I am gripped with a "fuck it" moment......you may use/amend/insert/delete if you think it might help.
Qu 1. While drinking, have you ever texted/posted on social media something inappropriate that you can't remember the next day?
c. I had to lock my phone in the car every night and then I would still stumble to the car to get it if I felt in my drunken state that I had something to rant about, or "profound" to share.
(I chose "c")
Qu 2. Have you ever woken up in the morning with the sneaking suspicion that you had sex the night before but can't remember it?
c. What's sober sex like?**
(I chose "c")
Qu 3. Have you ever thanked God for Netflix and re-watched episodes of a show, because you can't remember what happened, and you don't want anyone to know?
c. Luckily I work from home, so I could (re) binge watch the whole of Breaking Bad.
(oh, you know)
Qu 4. Did you ever google "am I an alcoholic" or read a sober blog?
c.Just look at my search engine results, you only have to type in "a" to see what the prompts are...
Qu 5. Now that you have given up drinking, do you ever wish that you could go back to the way things were?
c. Never, ever, ever, ever.
** Don't worry, I know now!
Have a great week,