Or my Alternative Title for this post....."Life isn't a facebook meme....."
I am feeling quite restless. According to the Shamanic Monthly e-mail I get on the 1st of every month, which is supposed to guide me spiritually for the next 30 or so days ($19.99 gets you the accompanying daily audio), RESTLESS is the Theme for November.
Hence, I was not too worried about feeling restless....until I saw the news on the 31st October, (which no one else seems to have seen) when I learned that a giant asteroid (shaped seasonally like a pumpkin) was hurtling towards Earth, and would (hopefully) miss us by a narrow margin.
"Hmmm.." I thought..."That sucks..."
And second thought...
"What's the point of me being sober then? If I am to die like the dinosaurs? And why was this not mentioned in my Shamanic Monthly Newsletter? Would I have been notified if I had signed up for the audio?
I am restless because now that I am Sober.....I feel that I should be DOING something with my life....
I have been the classic underachiever for most of my life.
Could have gone to University and become a lawyer .....didn't ( as my mother reminds me at every fucking opportunity)
Could have stayed at my soul- less mind numbing job at the bank and reached the dizzy heights of "Manager" ......didn't (would DEFINITELY have died of alcoholism if I had done that)
Could have been a famous ballerina....didn't (failed my first dance exam when I was five)......and so on....
Until here I am, nearly 48 years old, and the two big accomplishments of my life (so far), are finding my lovely husband (having the good sense to marry him) and quitting booze.
I read so often about people who had a life changing experience...maybe a brush with death, maybe the loss of a loved one, and then they completely turned their life around and climbed Everest, or became President or something...
How many times have you seen a horrible tragedy on the news and thought to yourself....
"life is so short......I should do something with mine...."
And then the headlines go on to something else, and that fleeting thought was just that.....fleeting.
My facebook timeline is filled with "Inspirational Memes"......quotes on pretty backgrounds, intended to lift you up, and inspire you to great things...
"Life isn't a dress rehearsal!"
"Be All that you can be!"
"Live your Passion"
And most of us scroll by, or maybe "share' them, as if this tiny action, this sharing of the inspirational message is all you have to do....
A smart lady who runs the business group I'm in....posted in exasperation a few weeks ago, something like this..
"I glad you're all inspired, but inspiration is nothing without action...."
I probably "liked" the post and moved on, forgetting it until now, now that my Fate is completely dependent on the hurtling asteroid....
I guess what I am really trying to say, is that now I have finally climbed out of my wine soaked pit, I would like my Sober Life to actually mean something. So here is what I have resolved...
I will take Action.
My life will not be a Meme.
I will Accomplish Things.
I will Unsubscribe from Shamanic Monthly.
(providing, of course that we don't get struck by the hurtling pumpkin asteroid).