....it's always the Liver that suffers....
This dropped into my timeline yesterday. I have no idea who to attribute this quote, but whoever it is, is a very wise person.
After reading Sober Mummy's post yesterday (read it here), I was struck that so many of our struggles are not just Drinking v Not Drinking.
And as I have had my "triggers" pushed lately too, I am reminded that addiction is just a symptom.
So many times during my life, I've made decisions with my head that didn't align with my heart.
I've stayed in relationships far too long.
I've chosen jobs and careers when they were not what I wanted to do.
I've gone along with plans, and gone down paths, even when deep in my heart, I knew it was wrong for me.
And as I got further and further away from who I really am, I got bitter, cynical and I drank to drown out that uneasiness that had become both a comfort blanket and a burden that weighed me down.
If this sounds all a bit "out there" and "bringing out my inner hippy", then be assured that self reflection doesn't sit well with me either, I've always thought it to be self absorbed, and "nonsense" ( I feel Sober Mummy nodding her head, you know what I mean don't you?)
But if this sober journey is teaching me anything, it is that my head and my heart need to be in total agreement and harmony, in order to fully protect my liver.....
Maybe that's why Christmas is such a trigger for all of us. Christmas reminds us of another time when both head and heart were in true harmony. A time when magic and love came easily, when peace on earth seemed possible, before we complicated it all.....
It sounds so glib and flippant, doesn't it? Just follow your heart......
I'm not even sure I know how to do that, but I beginning to think it might be the key.